. My joints were aching from a combination of age and wear and tear and oh yeah, that time I fell off a mountain. In a car. That. Anyway, that's old news. But I decided that it would be nice if I could put on a jacket without the kind of pain that makes it hard not to scream, so I went to the doc. He diagnosed nerve pain, and prescribed the latest and greatest pill.."just for this kind of pain". So, why not, I gave it a try. And waited. And waited. After a few days I sort of noticed the pain was still there, but duller. But I also noticed my brain was a little foggy. And there were also a few new pounds on my scale. Now, I almost never get on a scale, it's just not where I put my attention. Until my jeans get a little snug.
The battery on the scale was low. It said that, right on the screen. 'LO'. So a week later, with dull pain, and a dull brain, I finally remembered to pick up a new battery. And just to test it out I jumped on the scale to find.... TEN POUNDS????!!!! WHAT? Google quickly confirmed my suspicions that this not so wonderful medicine was the culprit. So of course, I called the doc, he agreed with Google and said the meds were totally optional.And I tossed those pills down the sink. And while Dr. Google assured me that the weight would come off just as quickly as it came on, I was still in a funk.
The thing about that ten pounds was that it came along during a week of lots of other things that just weren't going to plan. It felt like along with trying to make things work at work, and figure out how to juggle fifteen things at once, now I was fat? Awesome.
Luckily for me, I had a coaching session scheduled with my fabulous Mastermind goddess coach, and of course my response to ' how are you' was a very stressed out, and kind of loud - I GAINED TEN POUNDS. Of course that was followed by the explanation that it was caused by these awful meds and I'd already started to see it come off but still, it had me feeling all kinds of weird and rattled. She was quiet. I waited, embarrassed at my outburst but relieved because I'd gotten THAT off my chest. More quiet. I started to settle into that silence with her. We talked about everything that was going well, how some of the obstacles I was seeing were natural components of finding success in the things I was taking big risks to do. We dreamed and schemed a bit and were almost out of time when she said..."oh, and Tia? those ten pounds? ... with some people I'd ask about the Doritos... but I'm getting the feeling that you have something creative that is really big, that you still need to let out into the world. I mean huge. Like TEN POUNDS of creativity you are just holding on to. I'm just sayin. What do you think?".
I felt the rush start at the back of my neck. "The screenplay" I said quietly. I need to write the screenplay for my book. I need to do that." She said..."Well, there you go.You should do that". We talked a little more and that night I grabbed a new notebook I'd bought 'just because' and guess what happened. That ten pounds turned into the first ten pages of a movie. And you know what else? I think she was on to something because before I knew it my jeans were fitting just fine.
So my loves... if you're feeling a little bit like life is out of control, or your jeans are feeling a little snug, or you can't find your mojo? Take a minute, settle down, and think - what are you holding on to that is making your life heavier than it needs to be? And then let it go, or let it out. I promise you'll feel lighter quicker than you can say '10 pounds' xo